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12:55 pm * March 18, 2002 |
I didn't even bother trying to sleep until about 2:30 am this morning. Then I woke up at 6:30 am, went back to sleep, and then woke up again at around 10:15 am. I still didn't want to get up. I even tried to go back to sleep but it just wasn't happening. I don't want to be awake. I'd rather just sleep until I have to go to work. Which isn't until Saturday this week I think. Other people knew and warned me I wouldn't get the job, but I still thought I might, and now, since they never returned my call, I guess I didn't. I'd like more closure than just not getting a phone call. But I'm sick of being the one calling them. I've been trying to pull off this false bravado act, pure b.s., and as of last night I stopped. Why the hell should I try to fool anyone? And on top of that, was I really foolish enough to think I could fool myself into believing this wasn't going to shake me up a bit? I wanted that job, and I STILL think I could have done a good job for their company. People tell me I should call them just so I have the final answer. Yes or no. Did I get the job or not? I think that the lack of a call kind of says, "You sucked. We didn't hire you." I think I'm going to try to go back to bed. |
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